Saturday, April 14, 2012

Mid Life

Writer's block! I celebrated (okay so no actual celebration) my 46th birthday Monday. You would think with that many years under my belt I would have alot to write about.

I've been thinking alot about life lately. I really need to get in shape before it's too late. My knees are not good so I don't get the exercise I should and working in a call centre I am stationary for long periods of time. As a kid I was always very skinny but from the time I was about 22 or 23 I started to struggle with my weight. I'm afraid to step on a scale right now because I know I am the heaviest I have been. Over the years I have tried different diets but unless you stick to them you gain back what you lost and then some. I know many people experience this. With my knees not being good it's kind of a catch 22 situation. I need to lose weight so that my knees don't have to hold up so much but I need to get more exercise to lose that weight.

I often look at my kids and think of how awful it would be not to see them grow to adulthood and have families of their own. The worst part is that it is in my hands and I feel that I should be able to gain control of my body. I don't feel that I eat very much but that I eat the wrong things. I've been trying to eat more fruit and vegetables lately. I know I need to drink more water too. I have seen people on tv who have persevered and lost so much weight and they've done it the right way (eating right and exercising). I think the big difference with some stories is that someone else is preparing foods for them and looking after keeping them on their exercise programs. They also are not at work or looking after a household and 3 kids.

Maybe I need a weight loss buddy to share my struggle with. Someone who is at the same plateau that I am at would be nice (not the girls at work who are on a panic diet because they need to lose 8 or 10 pounds). Is there anyone out there who would like to share their struggle or success story? I've been thinking maybe Weight Watcher's online program although you are really only accountable to yourself when you go that route. I think that is what I will do and to help with my accountability I will post to my blog about my progress.

So for everyone who is reading this I need some encouragement. Check in with me each week to see how I am doing and get on my case if I say I am falling down! Talk to you all soon and thanks for listening.